One of Hitlers staff said "the worst thing anyone has to do in life is make a decision". Look at the result of letting other people decide for us. Never that delicious. Sometimes disastrous results.
I understand this sentence. It's the heart of procrastination. It opens up the door to "what if?" What if it's the wrong decision? God I hate this torture, let someone else decide!
Torture lies in non commitment. In my experience when I make a decision and commit to it something lines up in the ether and the resources have a way of showing up to support that decision. I don't know how this works, neither do I need to know, I just have seen it work enough times to know that it does.
Probably the most difficult decision I chose was to either stay in Baltimore in '95, move to Portland or move to New York. I chose Portland. I think that was ultimately a poor choice for me but I followed through and don't regret it at all. See, the toughest decisions are the ones where they all look like good choices, and in fact at least 2 of those choices were potentially great. Staying in Baltimore was not an option. My deepest fear is in standing still. It was probably better to go to New York in '95, that was the scariest choice but I am glad I had my west coast experience. I still did a lot of growing there.
At the heart of indecision lies fear. Fear of the unknown. Or is it unknown? If I don't know the result, why would I be fearful? Fear is always old right? "Don't let that happen again!" is the tape loop in my brain that keeps me in a state of indecision and agony. It's what keeps me in a state of putting off what must be done. And it's old. Dead like all those awful fascist leaders I opened this post with. Why be afraid of the dead? We are alive after all, and capable of creating something better.
One of the beauties of being an improvising musician is I need to make decisions every second. I make tons of wrong choices every minute. If I can apply this to my life the same way I apply it to music, decisions will become as easy as breathing. No telling what can be accomplished if I treat life as an experiment. Life is an experiment and ever changing, that is a fact. Fear is old and stagnant, that is a fact. Forks in the road are just that, forks. I never get hung up on the type of fork I use when eating, I just eat when I'm hungry. Simple.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-6xHI7FFhs
I understand this sentence. It's the heart of procrastination. It opens up the door to "what if?" What if it's the wrong decision? God I hate this torture, let someone else decide!
Torture lies in non commitment. In my experience when I make a decision and commit to it something lines up in the ether and the resources have a way of showing up to support that decision. I don't know how this works, neither do I need to know, I just have seen it work enough times to know that it does.
Probably the most difficult decision I chose was to either stay in Baltimore in '95, move to Portland or move to New York. I chose Portland. I think that was ultimately a poor choice for me but I followed through and don't regret it at all. See, the toughest decisions are the ones where they all look like good choices, and in fact at least 2 of those choices were potentially great. Staying in Baltimore was not an option. My deepest fear is in standing still. It was probably better to go to New York in '95, that was the scariest choice but I am glad I had my west coast experience. I still did a lot of growing there.
At the heart of indecision lies fear. Fear of the unknown. Or is it unknown? If I don't know the result, why would I be fearful? Fear is always old right? "Don't let that happen again!" is the tape loop in my brain that keeps me in a state of indecision and agony. It's what keeps me in a state of putting off what must be done. And it's old. Dead like all those awful fascist leaders I opened this post with. Why be afraid of the dead? We are alive after all, and capable of creating something better.
One of the beauties of being an improvising musician is I need to make decisions every second. I make tons of wrong choices every minute. If I can apply this to my life the same way I apply it to music, decisions will become as easy as breathing. No telling what can be accomplished if I treat life as an experiment. Life is an experiment and ever changing, that is a fact. Fear is old and stagnant, that is a fact. Forks in the road are just that, forks. I never get hung up on the type of fork I use when eating, I just eat when I'm hungry. Simple.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-6xHI7FFhs
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