I had a psychology teacher in high school, Mr Wizda (no joke!) who didn't like to say "have a good day" cause it was just too passive. Me would say "make it a good day!" instead. This annoyed me probably much like it annoyed other folks. We're so trained to say the former.
The last few weeks have been really challenging. I've met some major goals which is quite uncomfortable (funny how that is! Knowing thy actual power is scary!), I've also intiated some amends which is a goal in itself and a painful one. I've had some setbacks that affect my finances (I behave my worst under financial insecurity!) and my vibes have been extraordinarily low. Truth be told I fell into that AWESOME victim 'pity party' space this last week. You know, "life sucks blah blah blah".
I say blah blah blah cause that's what my brain has been saying. A feeling, good or bad, only last a minute if even that, but a story can last a lifetime. "Blah blah blah, this happened to me blah blah blah life sucks won't you feel sorry for me now? Yadda yadda." And the more I engage in that low vibe the lower I go, the more boring I become, the less work I get done, the less money I make, the less attractive I become and the old story becomes THE story. I get to wear it like a medal: I'm a victim! See?
Um....yeah, that's not reality. That's insanity.
So yesterday I woke up and got about 2 1/2 seconds of peace before the story started kicking in. "Loser!" screamed through my head in a horrible Dick Cheney cracked church bell type of way.
So I asked myself, "dude what is this all about? So I had a setback. There's a lot more dough to be made and if I sulk, things will stay the same." So then I asked myself "how about I make it a good day like Mr. Wizda suggest?" So I did just that. I took good care of myself and the day ended with me working on music for 5 hours. It wasn't a perfect day thank goodness, but it was good and I achieved the goal of feeling good. And that's enough to remember, I can make the same choice the next day and the day after.
I wonder why I was ever annoyed by that suggestion? Or why I don't suggest the same thing on a daily basis? Or why I forget my responsibility to myself and my fellow humans? If I make it a good day for me then everyone I come in contact with has a bit more light to work with! Now that sounds good...
JB
The last few weeks have been really challenging. I've met some major goals which is quite uncomfortable (funny how that is! Knowing thy actual power is scary!), I've also intiated some amends which is a goal in itself and a painful one. I've had some setbacks that affect my finances (I behave my worst under financial insecurity!) and my vibes have been extraordinarily low. Truth be told I fell into that AWESOME victim 'pity party' space this last week. You know, "life sucks blah blah blah".
I say blah blah blah cause that's what my brain has been saying. A feeling, good or bad, only last a minute if even that, but a story can last a lifetime. "Blah blah blah, this happened to me blah blah blah life sucks won't you feel sorry for me now? Yadda yadda." And the more I engage in that low vibe the lower I go, the more boring I become, the less work I get done, the less money I make, the less attractive I become and the old story becomes THE story. I get to wear it like a medal: I'm a victim! See?
Um....yeah, that's not reality. That's insanity.
So yesterday I woke up and got about 2 1/2 seconds of peace before the story started kicking in. "Loser!" screamed through my head in a horrible Dick Cheney cracked church bell type of way.
So I asked myself, "dude what is this all about? So I had a setback. There's a lot more dough to be made and if I sulk, things will stay the same." So then I asked myself "how about I make it a good day like Mr. Wizda suggest?" So I did just that. I took good care of myself and the day ended with me working on music for 5 hours. It wasn't a perfect day thank goodness, but it was good and I achieved the goal of feeling good. And that's enough to remember, I can make the same choice the next day and the day after.
I wonder why I was ever annoyed by that suggestion? Or why I don't suggest the same thing on a daily basis? Or why I forget my responsibility to myself and my fellow humans? If I make it a good day for me then everyone I come in contact with has a bit more light to work with! Now that sounds good...
JB
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